HEY HEY!!

Ok I have the biggest headache right now! My "issue" that I have been dealing with for the past 4 days remains unresolved, and last night it completely consumed me to the point of breaking! Ryan came to my house to once again help me out, but while he was here I really held it in, I was so close to just bursting into tears, but didn't. I have no idea what to feel or what to do, this is all new to me!

Later though after Ryan had left and we were back to talking through IM, we both just poured it all out and I eventually lost it. I tried to fight it, but couldn't anymore, and I sat here crying my eyes out overtaken by all my emotions. I did feel a little better after that, but I know I won't stop feeling this way until this is all over.

I had to work today (bleh!!) not fun for me right now at all. Ryan (again) came to visit me and got me food at Wendy's, which was good cuz I hadn't eaten anything all day, so I was a bit starving! And just to let peeps out there know, me and Ryan are strictly friends!!! He's one of my best friends and right now he's my support system, I've just been having a tough time and he's been there the whole time! That explains why I have mentioned his name so much lately. I also want to thank Kelly, she offered to listen, which I appreciate, she didn't know that during the time I was talking to her I was bawling my eyes out, but she was making me laugh at the same time which helped balance things out for me.

So yeah I apologize if my posts have been depressing lately, maybe y'all can send some positivity my way or something, I could use it! My head hurts, my heart hearts, and all my emotions are completely out of whack, so I need something. I'm done for now.

Bye Bye!!