I have enough to deal with, no more please!

Whoever made up that saying " God doesn't throw at us any more then we can handle" I'm beginning to think that's just a little bit bullshit. Because it seems he's throwing a shitload of stuff my way in recent months, and I seriously don't think I can take anymore. I'm trying to put all my energy and concentration mainly in my baby, cuz that's obviously the biggest and most important thing that's been thrown at me, and so far I think I'm doing pretty good. But now I just have more shit to think about, and damnit I'm tired, no more god please. This week has just been blah!! Not a great week really. I mean physically I'm doing good, I feel fine ya know. I'm 15 weeks going on 16. Everything with the baby is still doing great. It's things around me that have just up and changed on me quite unexpectedly. And I have no choice but to adjust to it.

It really started last Wednesday, when I checked my emails, and I got one from Joe (he's the baby's dad if remember) saying he needed to talk to me, so I caught him online and asked him what was up. At first he said he wanted to tell me in person, but he ended up telling me right there. Mainly because I was just anxious to know what was up. Anywayz he tells me that he's gotten a new job (good thing) but that it will take him to Argentina for a minimum of 3 months (ooooook not such a good thing really). I was kinda left speechless at first, but I got most of my questions I had for him in. This was an opportunity for him, so I was not about to make him stay or feel guilty or what not, I'm not that kind of person. He made sure that he came to my doctor's appt. the next day, which gave him the chance to at least hear the baby's heartbeat before he left. But he ended up leaving this past Wednesday, which means he'll obviously miss out on things to come, mainly the ultrasound I'll have sometime in the next month or two, which would tell us the sex of the baby, something he really didn't want to miss. But again he has to do what he has to do, and I'm really just hoping he's not kept much longer then the 3 months, and he'll be back before the baby's born. In the meantime we're gonna keep in touch as much as it's possible.

Well that was one thing that kind of threw me for a loop, the other came on Monday. I went into work as I normally do, worked the first half of my shift and then went on my usual hour lunch. So come back from lunch, and the pharmacist says she needs to see me in her office. I really didn't think much of it at first. She starts out just asking me how was doing, feeling and all that, no biggy. Then her tone changes, and she proceeds to tell me how they haven't been getting a lot of new prescription patients in, things have slowed down, they now have too many clerks then are needed, blah blah blah. Anywayz me essentially being on the bottom of the totem poll, since I started there last, they ended laying me off. They let me go that day. Ok now I was planning on quitting within the coming weeks, since it was waaaaaay to far to drive, for too little money and hours. So it just wasn't gonna hold with a baby on the way. BUT I of course wanted to have found a new job before I did so. So now I am in the process of finding a new job, FAST. It really sucks, cuz there really is nothing out there if you think about it. But I just have to find anything at this point, I have bills coming up, and they're still gonna want to get paid bleh!!. So please people send some good vibes my way, that I find a job damn quick!!! Well sorry this post was so damn long, but as you can see, I things to talk about. Talk to y'all soon!!

Laterz!!